the song "welcome to detriot city" makes me HIGH!!!! haha xD i've been a good lil kid. i never say anything bad this few days.. other than the fact tt she's super tall and is blocking MY view. argh. wadever. i've been very nice. when there's no peer tutoring, i told her when i can choose to ignore it. when she dropped her pen in the aeroponic farm, i took it up for her so she can run into shelter faster. i dun ask for rewards or smt. but at least being polite to me is wad i deserve isnt it.....? wadever. i dun wanna care.

oh yes. we ARE wrong and she's ALL right. we simply jus dun understand wad's she gg thru. we blamed her for everything isolating her abusing her bullying her molesting her u termed isolating when everyone's talking to u? u termed abusing when people jus make fun of your name? u termed molesting when it's jus a friendly pat? u termed bullying when we didnt do anything? YOU ARE ABSURB. isolating is when no one talks to you. tt's to me when there's smt wrong with you! or else y ppl arent talking to you? abusing is some sort of sexual abuse in this case. cm'on la, where's any bruises? go see doctor and see whether u have been rape or something. molesting is when somebody touches your sex organs or smt la. not jus on your shoulder. bullying is when ppl cornered you to somewhere and make u do smt. is this wad she wants? then fine. i've given her the attention she needs and wad she want. and it's fucking enough. if u arent happy in 4e3, then jus transfer out of this class stop playing fun with everyone's emotions. it's not at all funny when ppl apologise jus stop laughing as if the whole world owes u anything if u didnt know, WE DUN. i've NEVER seen andrew in this state neither was fan ye neither was chiben neither was jun wei i've NEVER thought u were like this i simply thot u were a simple person yet you arent u do know how to hide ur true self! i dun owe you a single thing. u arent happy then get your mother your father you sister wadever down the sch. i dun give a fucking damn to wad u do call police when i jus ignore u? fine. go ahead. u tink i will be nice to you from tt day onwards? NO! i wont. i simply will jus distance myself away from you there's smt wrong with your character! even if ur sister is coming to flood my blog for wadever things u tink i'm afraid? NO! i wont i'll jus simply block your IP add and make me even hate you all! u tink reasoning with me is enough? it's NOT. who is the real victim man?

sigh sigh SIGH!!! my parents seemed to be quarreling every now and then. *hais* from young i badly hoped to be borned in a happy fam. you guys may be thinking i'm happy already. but i'm NOT. i simply detest going home each day.. esp if my parents are at home. whenever my dad drinks, it'll be worst. he simply let alchohol get control of him. smashing things seemed to be like a common thing he would be doing on mon, fri, sat AND sun. and like hello, it's 4 day perweek. i dunnoe how the hell my mum can even endure him man. yes, i would say, he's a great dad to be. but i simply detest it when he smokes at home; worst still get drunk and create a stir at home. i've no offence to those who drinks, but i hate it when they starts to throw things around, shouting, and on top of it, using authority to pressurise me! my mum seemed to be rather pissed off as well. then they start to quarrel. even my siblings arent spared as well. i dun see why my dad should scolding me and my sis when we were jus doing our own stuffs at 10.30. he's getting more and more unreasonable. fcuk. i rather to be in a normal family. without ppl who smoke, drinks or gamble in my house! #%$#^%*$^@^%*& i hate to blog this kind of shit and rubbish in my blog. i'm sorry to ppl like ritz. =( but i choose to blog rather then having a head-on quarrel with my friends and family.

i'm so PISSED off! please do not take me for granted. i'm a living thing too. i've got feelings. great;; u win i tink i've overdid something wrong. i was sorry for tt but i dun seemed to change anything. BLAH. junwei asked me a question and he got me to tink of certain things. i tink i'm a super wierd person. i may b talking to somebody, but it doesnt mean tt i'm willing to talk. sometimes is simply tt a person talk to me and i jus replied. i tink i still need to have basic manners. xD i tink someone have misunderstood me again. i dun feel like saying out. i dun wan another big even to happen again. i admit: i'm really sick and tired of all this things. i jus goanna sit back and relax for things to happen now. not looking for things to happy nowadays. finally, i managed to listen to wad mdm lim had said in physic lessons and it's for 1 full hour! yay! i tink why i've been failing physics is because i dun listen in class and when i dun understand certain concepts, i dun ask her =) thanks cindy for the balloon!! <3

arghh. i didnt manage to get out today. i was supposed to meet up with justin. but so sad, he was still in sch. so being super super bored, i went to pop to get the stuffs i needed. then i jus realised i spend 7bucks. damn it la. i'll soon be declared bankcrupt. with so many birthday tt's coming up.. i'm really broke. got sooo pissed off with my retarded dumb fren, wangxu and his good buddy, dennis. nearly have a quarrel with wx for spilling everything out to dennis! in addition he even told him so much things that never even happen! i got so angry tt i even slap him twice =X so sorryyy pal.. but the funny thing is tt we always ended our day well and fun! xD in the end we still walk home la. so not much worries though =) i was still getting very irriated by jonathan and terence bloody comments on me. why cant they get a life and stop all this bloody rumours. and they arent funny at all. wadthefuck. i realised tt in jus in this stupid year i've change rather alot. good changes bad changes? i dunnoe. i jus needed to study harder. tt's all i shld and mus be thinking right now i supposed. but wad the heck has i been doing.........? humph. preserving till the end.

mayb things ARE going to change for the better with justin by my side!! jus his words and stuffs. i dunnoe whether to treat him as a brother or wad. he's so much older than me. he's nice i admit. better than "him" (a person who i've always treated as a brother) p/s: the "him" i've always been refering in my blog is simply jus sm1 i've treated jus like a buddy. mayb less. he's not like my bf/crush or something. (look down) i looked back at my old post i've in the aug last yr it's been nearly 8 months. i've wasted 8 bloody months. i've enough of it as well. i jus realised u werent even my type jus tt u've done too much for me u make me feel like i was yours and you were mine but it wasnt u were simply jus someone i look up to jus like an elder bro. come on, jus let's buck up for our o level. it's not the time to be in a bgr. xD i jus realised i've change too much ever since last aug too. i turned frm a quiet girl to somehow-attention-seeker. damn it la.. i jus wanna study hard........... can i do it......? *i asked god as i prayed each night.